Archive for December, 2010

The Day After

December 26, 2010

Christmas was a success. :D  Lots of paper flying, hearty laughter, and the many noises of children’s toys.  What wasn’t so fun was Kasen waking up pretty early in the night and telling me that she needed to throw up. :(  That continued  way too many times throughout the night.  As Kasen slept on my side of the bed, I sat next to her on the floor, waiting.  As soon as I would hear her whimper, off we would go.  I finally got to sleep about 6:00 a.m. this morning, and thankfully, Brad let me sleep for a bit while he tended to the kids.  Kasen had a delicious breakfast consisting of water and crackers ;) – we’re hoping she keeps that down.  After she was her sweet cheerful self, she looked quite sad and said that she didn’t feel well . . . could she please just lie down and watch a movie. Of course.  I’m hoping she rests a lot today, I know she needs it.  Now if Holden doesn’t get it, we’ll be golden. *crossing fingers*

I didn’t take as many pictures as I would have liked yesterday, but I was having fun in the moment.  We took lots of video though, love that.  It was so nice to share with Brad’s Mom and Dad too.  They came over for Christmas brunch and then we just played and played all day long.  Kasen and Holden are both so alike in that they both have the same attitude – the more the merrier.  They are both happy when all their peeps are together.  It’s tough right now because they want to be right next to us 24/7, but as Brad points out – “Just think, when they’re 16 and can drive, we’ll never see them again.  They’ll always want to hang out with their friends.” LOL  Sounds great right now, but I’m not so sure I’ll be feeling the same way when that time comes.  For now, I’ll cuddle our sweet girl, and play “Itsy-Bitsy Spider” every 15 minutes with our adorable boy and soak it all in – those times will be gone in the blink of an eye and it’s time to enjoy the ride. :)

These were taken a few days before Christmas.  One day it was 85 degrees and the next day, it was 40 degrees and we had coats, hats and gloves on.  Crazy Texas weather.  The kids want to go outside no matter what the weather though, so we just prepare for the elements and have fun!! :)



Hope your Christmas was MERRY!! :D

Cookies for Santa

December 25, 2010

The cookies are out, chocolate chip.  They’re Santa’s favorite you know! ;)  And a special carrot for the reindeer.  Oh yeah, and milk.  Can’t forget the milk.  It’s all ready and waiting.  We had one VERY excited little girl at bedtime tonight.  I would say that Holden is excited too, but he just doesn’t get it yet.  Kasen very carefully picked out the plate and the cup for Santa.  I love her confidence in making decisions.  She picked them right away, and never wavered . . . even though she had about 10 cups to choose from.  That girl, she definitely knows what she wants.  Then she clenched those little fists together and held them up to her cheeks, and in the highest voice imaginable, she squealed, “I’m so excited!” LOL  Even after she went to bed, she heard Brad and I in the kitchen.  She called for us and was quite concerned that if we didn’t hurry up and go to bed, that Santa wouldn’t come.  He knows that Mommy and Daddy have to be asleep too for the magic to happen.  Oh the magic, isn’t it wonderfu?! :D

Even though I’m super excited to see my little one’s faces in the morning, see their surprise to know that Santa came and left lots of presents, to hear their joy while singing “Happy Birthday” to Jesus before we eat His birthday cake, I still imagine those who are not doing all those things. :(  It wasn’t too long ago, that it was us . . . . imagining, praying, waiting for these moments.  For us they came, for others they didn’t, and that still breaks my heart.  I’ve been listening to lots of Christmas music, since even before Thanksgiving.  Yes, I’m one of those people, I just love it! LOL  One of my favorite songs is from Amy Grant called “My Grown-Up Christmas List” and the line that brings tears to my eyes every single time, is “And time would heal all hearts.”  *tears*  I love this verse too, “Well heaven surely knows, That packages and bows, Can never heal, A hurting human soul.”  Here’s the link to the song: “Grown-Up Christmas List” I used to listen to this song every Christmas and wonder if my heart would ever heal, especially after losing Halle.  Honestly, it hasn’t.  That doesn’t mean that I don’t enjoy my life, but my heart still hurts, it still aches that her stocking isn’t being filled every Christmas Eve, that I don’t get to see those sparkling eyes on Christmas morning, and hear her laughter while enjoying all her new presents.  It does mean that I’m super grateful for my two littles here on earth, that I can hardly sleep because I’m so excited to see their sweet faces in a few hours, that I love them so much my heart hurts . . . . in a good way. :)

Christmas means that I remember. I enjoy. I miss. I appreciate. I hurt. I anticipate. I love.  My heart is twisted in a million different ways, longing for what should have been, and happy for my blessings.

Merry Christmas!!  I hope that all your wishes come true!


Wow, it’s been so long since I’ve blogged, I almost didn’t know how to log back on here. ;)  We are in the Christmas rush getting everything ready like many families I know.  But we added one more HUGE thing onto our list this December.  We decided to take a trip to Disney World in the middle of it all.  And yes, I would do it again in a heartbeat.  It really was magical.  Brad and I took Kasen by ourselves.  Holden hung out with his Mae Mae and Papa; and I’m pretty sure they loved spending time with him as much as he adored all that attention.

As for Disney World, it was just incredible.  Maybe because I’ve never been before, ever.  Or maybe it was seeing all that magic through our little girl’s eyes.  Tears welled up in my eyes more times than I can count . . . . watching Kasen see the Magic Kingdom for the first time and yelling in the bus, “There’s the castle!!  There’s the castle!”  Seeing her eyes light up when Ariel and Princess Jasmine each blew her a kiss from the floats they were riding on in the parade.  Hearing Kasen’s screams of delight on the roller coaster and hearing her say, “Again. Again. Let’s do it again, and again. and again.” LOL  Watching her face gleam as she saw herself for the first time, all dolled up at the Bibbidi Bobbidi Boutique – she had enough glitter for several fairies. ;)  Following her down Main Street while she twirled and twirled in her Princess Ariel dress.  Listening to her gasp as she watched the fireworks and saw Tinkerbell fly over her head.  Amazed at her excitement when we met the Princesses for dinner at Cinderella’s Royal Table, oh, and the dance she did with Cinderella and the curtsies, that was beyond cute.  Laughing when she did her famous impression of “Arghhhhh” for Captain Hook and then her surprise when Peter Pan showed up at the end of the Pirate Cruise.  Her wonderful laughter at Cirque Du Soleil when as she puts it, “The funny guys in the white suits kept bumping into stuff.”  The jumping and laughing as the fake snow fell in Downtown Disney, as she yelled, “It’s snowing. It’s snowing.”  And the one that got me every.single.time – watching my husband holding Kasen on the balcony of our hotel, all wrapped up in a huge blanket, watching the fireworks every night.  It was the perfect ending to every wonderful, fantastic day filled with adventures, fun, and most of all, love.  I couldn’t have asked for more.  It was much needed for all of us.  I’m already planning our next trip back! ;)

Yes, I have lots of pictures, hopefully I’ll get to share them soon.  But for now, I have to share our Santa pic this year.  As you can see, Holden still isn’t fond of the big guy . . . maybe next year. :)  Kasen was as sweet and princessy as ever, gotta’ love her! :D


See ya’ later!!